Posted Sun Aug 19, 2007, 07:16 AM by Tracy

I knew it was just a matter of time before the test anxiety dreams started.

Last night I dreamt that I and my cohorts were testing. We were called to all line up. Then we were divided into groups. Each group was given a packet.

Inside each packet were several more packets, each labeled with a name of a student from our sister school. These packets were reused. Inside these packets were photocopies of puzzles from the newspaper: crosswords, sudokos, jumbles and word finds.

We dumped out the contents of one of the packets and people started working on different puzzles. I couldn’t decide which one to start on. I didn’t see how we could get them all done in time.

I became very agitated, screaming that we weren’t given any instruction and I didn’t know what to do. I told my sifu (who was inexplicably but impeccably dressed in a dark, charcoal grey suit) that I flat out resented being put into that situation without any clear instruction.

Dream or reality, you just don’t talk to your sifu like that. In my dream, Sifu told me that I had lost a lot of points for talking back. Fine, I said, maybe I should just pack it in now, as I grabbed for my purse.

What does it all mean? I’m afraid of being confronted with situations where I don’t have clear direction and I don’t know what to do. I have to accept that what’s going to happen in a test and deal with it.


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About Mo Duk Pai

Mo Duk Pai kung fu is a modern American eclectic system of martial arts, combining hard- and soft-style techniques Mo Duk Pai, which translates to “Martial Ethical Way”, was founded by Professor Frederick D. King. For more information, to see photos or inquire about training, visit the Mo Duk Pai web site, which I also maintain. I have been training since 1996 and currently hold the rank of brown-black sash.


Sifu (pr. see-foo [Cantonese] or shur-foo [Mandarin]) is a Chinese term for Teacher. It also carries the connotation of Father (teacher-father), referring to a tradition of teaching martial arts within the family, as well as being a title of respect. In America the title sifu is given to both men and women. In Mo Duk Pai the title is awarded to 2nd degree black belts at their teacher’s discretion.


Qigong (pr. chee-gung) is the practice of Chinese exercises incorporating movement and posture, breathing and visualization. Qigong exercises focus on maintaining health by energizing and balancing one’s qi, or energy.