I knew it was just a matter of time before the test anxiety dreams started.
Last night I dreamt that I and my cohorts were testing. We were called to all line up. Then we were divided into groups. Each group was given a packet.
Inside each packet were several more packets, each labeled with a name of a student from our sister school. These packets were reused. Inside these packets were photocopies of puzzles from the newspaper: crosswords, sudokos, jumbles and word finds.
We dumped out the contents of one of the packets and people started working on different puzzles. I couldn’t decide which one to start on. I didn’t see how we could get them all done in time.
I became very agitated, screaming that we weren’t given any instruction and I didn’t know what to do. I told my sifu (who was inexplicably but impeccably dressed in a dark, charcoal grey suit) that I flat out resented being put into that situation without any clear instruction.
Dream or reality, you just don’t talk to your sifu like that. In my dream, Sifu told me that I had lost a lot of points for talking back. Fine, I said, maybe I should just pack it in now, as I grabbed for my purse.
What does it all mean? I’m afraid of being confronted with situations where I don’t have clear direction and I don’t know what to do. I have to accept that what’s going to happen in a test and deal with it.